update

Well we hung out monday and tuesday. I helped her pack up some stuff to help her move and just lived life. it was nice! The trip to South Dakota is frustrating because we still don't know if we are going because she STILL hasn't asked her boss....frustrating!!! I might not know before I leave for California! I have really enjoyed the last few times we have gotten together. It hasn't been stressful in the slightest. I also had coffee with Ella on Monday and realized just how much I like Christa and how beautiful I think she is. ella was still really pretty, but not on the same level!

update

so Friday night I was supposed to go over and help her pack, but she ended up not getting done with work till 1030. I went over to her office and just waited with her. We then went back to her place and watch an episode of Doctor Who and hung out a little.

Saturday we went to the Iowa State Fair. It was a lot of fun. We had chick-a-fil for lunch. it was the first time for her! then we saw bunnies, sheep, horses, art, history, and just tons of stuff. It was a blast. I bought her a necklace and a knife. We didn't get home till like 2am though...long day.

Sunday I went over to her house for lunch with three of Andy's friends from Grace and Derek and Angela. It was a lot of fun. So many people!!! Then Christa went to clean I came back to my house and did some work and took a nap. When I woke up from the nap I was just not in a good mood and really looking forward to just hanging out with her. Well she changed plans and we went over to the Hillmers for a Mallian tea ceremony. It was actually pretty fun. I made those yummy italian sandwiches for everyone and Bethany found a weird version of the Bible that we all read from which was pretty fun. Then we went back to Christa's and watch some Who and had tea. I didn't leave to 130! I need to sacrifice and leave earlier. I'm tired of feeling like a jerk when I leave because its soooo late! It was nice. I'm supposed to go over tonight and finally help her pack! I need to check with her though because during the week you never know how she could be feeling after she gets off work.

Wednesday

Wow, lunch today was alot of fun. We walked over to a place called foodies, it was delicious, she just seemed like she was in a good mood and generally happy to see me. We just seemed to enjoy each other's company. I took a really cute picture of her and really wanted to brag online about how lucky I was, but she didn't like the picture and asked me to take it down....I hope it was just because she didn't like how she looked like she claims. i thought she looked cute, but I guess my opinion doesn't count :(

Well she didn't want to come over tonight, but that's fine, we talked on the phone for like an hour and it was a very enjoyable conversation. We did talk about our biggest problems with each other, mine being her job, and her's being that we might spend too much time together. I just really like being around her. I really hope I don't drive her away because of that...God please let me learn to respect her space and give her the time and space she needs when she needs it, please let her see my point a view, and know I am trying. I really really like her and don't want to screw this up. God please let us both just figure this out as we go.

Tuesday night

So we talked about talking tonight, and when she finally called me she just seemed annoyed, pissed, and like I was the last person she wanted to talk to. What the crap! I'm so confused right now. I asked her what was wrong and she said nothing, but I'm pretty sure there is something....God please don't let things go south between us, I have decided to love her, and the fear of losing her terrifies me. I know you are good and if that does happen it will be for both our benefits, but God please give it all the chance of success and of your blessing. Idk what is wrong right now, but whatever it is please God take care of it, resolve it, and heal whatever hurt has been dealt.

Well both Pat and Jeff have raised the issue if it's ok for me to sleep on the couch at Christa's I really don't think it's the big of a deal, but I can see their point that it could damage our witness and be disrespectful to her parents. I feel like I should talk with her about this more, but its such a small issue that I think I'm just going to say I'm not going to sleep over any more.

Friday-Saturday

So we weren't planning on hanging out, and then we were going to get together and watch Doctor Who, but then she invited me out to her friends Jen's bf birthday party. I really didn't want to go, but I'm glad I did. It was a ton of fun, and it was honestly one of the first time I felt like we were a couple. She wasn't ashamed of me, and embraced our being together. We then went back to her place and watch some Parks and Rec and then kissed and cuddled. I slept on the coach because I was tired and and in a good state to drive home.

Today was kind of crappy. I loved seeing her this morning. We did Common prayer together and ate breakfast. I then did yoga, showered, and loaded the dishwasher for her. I then came back home, ate lunch, played some fifa, worked out, and took a nap. Unfortunately that's where my dad went bad. I talked to her around 8-9pm and we planned on praying together tonight, but while waiting for her to call, I ended up looking at porn and maturbating.....I feel horrible, I changed the password to ThinkofChrista. I hope that helps prevent any future mess ups....

Well Tuesday was fun, we got together and did yoga, which surprisingly was a work out and it was relaxing! who knew? we had dinner, and watch some Doctor Who and cuddled/kissed and just talked. It was alot of fun. Wednesday however she was stressed from work like she was the one Monday...I still have know idea what to do when she gets like that. Star gazing was a disaster. It was cloudy, she was in a bad mood, and the cops got called on us, we didn't get in trouble though because we weren't doing anything illegal. We left quickly and went back to her house. we just talked a little bit, and then we watch some parks and rec, and cuddled/kissed. I then spent the night on the coach because I was tired. It was nice seeing her first thing in the morning. I just hope it didn't freak her out. She did offer... I talked about alot of things with Levi today just getting his advice, and such. My conclusion I really like Christa(possibly more) and could definitely see myself marrying her. We will see though, he said the lovey dubby feelings disappear around month 3 and thats when you choose to love them even if you don't feel like it.