lunch

Well we went for lunch today at Bruegger's again. It was fun except I had to wait for an hour for her to get there...We went for a little walk and just talked. It was nice. The last few good times we have hung out she has given me this look a few times that makes me think she wants me to kiss her...maybe I should. I mean I really like her, but kissing is very personal for me. Maybe...

update: well she called me on her way home and we talked for awhile! I'm still concerned that we might not have anything to talk about when we talk on the phone.... Anyway she was supposed to call me to pray tonight, but she hadn't before 12:25 so I sent a message and she saw it right away. So either the message woke her up or I miss judge.... Oh well I hope she sleeps well and enjoys her work event tomorrow! I really can't wait till Saturday when we get to hang out!!!!

the day after

Ok I'm so confused she messages me saying she doesn't have to clean Saturday, and then when I ask her if that mean she wants to hang out more she goes "maybe" Why do I just feel like she wants me out of her life right now...maybe thats what I should do for her sake...

Ok well I'm an idiot! we are going to do lunch tomorrow, we talked on the phone for like an hour and a half, and we are going to make Saturday a great day! I really need to stop worrying about things and just enjoy the fun that dating Christa is.

Bad mood

Well I have seen a new side of her...We were supposed to hang out, have dinner, and watch Doctor Who tonight but she got off work really late, and when I got over there she was just in a really bad mood. I'm now sitting her in her living room trying to give her some alone time to destress. I just wish I knew what to do. She means so much to me and I hate to see her like this! I want to take her pain, anger, and stress away. I would gladly take them on myself and leave her with none, but I can't! God please comfort Christa right now. Take these strong emotions from her and give her peace. I feel like I should just leave, but she told me not to...I made her some tea and told her I put it out side her door. Seeing her like this really has shown me just how much I care for her, because it pains my heart to see her in pain. God please let me cheer her up and help her to have a good evening...

I should have just left. I feel like I handled everything horribly tonight....I just want her to be happy and I don't know how to help he be happy right now...

Well went over to her parents for lunch after church, and then went over to her house to watch the U.S. soccer game. Ended up having dinner and helping her get ride of clothes and hanging out till midnight!!! I really think she is starting to like me and I really like her!

Benson Days

Well went over and made scrambled eggs for breakfast then we went to Benson days and watch the parade and went shopping. saw Marie and Christa's family. It was fun got a freemason book and she bought a chair. then had tea and cuddled after. I really like her. I really thought she was the prettiest girl at Benson days and there were some pretty girls there. I think while we were talking I might have accidently said I love you...I might, but I don't want to say so until I'm sure. I hope she didn't pick up on that...anyway might be going over tonight to help her sort through clothes. I really like her :)

Friday

Sounds like she isn't having a very good day at work today. I have been praying for her all day and really hope God turns her day around. I just want to do something to make her smile and cheer her up, but promised her a night to her self...I don't know what I should do. She means so much to me and I just want to make her happy.

Skyped with her tonight! I really like her alot she is pretty cute and awesome!

Thursday Night

So I got her some Lavender Kabocha and prayed for her after young adults group. I really hope she thinks things are going well and that she is happy. I don't know why I worry so much. I guess its just that I have never had a relationship work out and I really like Christa and could she her being the one, but I'm so nervous about it going south. God please take my fear from me and let me just be able to enjoy my time with her. Let me show her your love and be the man she deserves. God please bless our relationship and let your will be done.

Thursday

I hope it's just me and that she isn't getting bored with things, because I feel like she might be... we kind of are running out of things to talk about on the phone and skype. In person we don't seem to have that issue though... idk God please don't let things happen to pull us apart. Let us keep growing closer and just enjoy each others company and not really feel forced to have to have something to talk about.

Official

It's official!!! today was our one month monthiversary. We did lunch like we did on the day she said yes to dating me. We went to bruggers and then went for a walk in the park. It was almost a disaster like last time. we were sitting on the park bench and she was just super stressed out from work, and as we talked she started crying and I just hugged her and prayed for her, and then she said she had planned on saying that she wanted us to be official today and that now seemed like a bad time, she doesn't seem to realize that all I cared about at the moment was her tears, and that I was so happy she wanted to be official that nothing could ruin it. I went to whole foods and bought her almonds, chips, kabocha, and the biggest things of flowers I have ever bought and took them over to her house. She loved them, and we cuddled had tea, and it was one of the best nights I can remember. God thank you so much for Christa! She is so amazing and I can't believe that you have blessed me like this. God please continue to bless our relationship and let us not forget to seek you first!